Hint by Dream

I had heard that our dreams are sometimes the things that we are having in the deep mind.
But didn't have experience before.
This was a good example that I experienced to prove above fact.
It is almost finished 5 yrs.
I have forgot the memories of NOB at my best.
Even I didn't keep his b day in my mind.
Even it didn't remind me recently.
But it's awesome!!!
He came to my dream at the midnight of the day before his b day...!!??!!
But nothing happened about b day.
He just came to our office for some official matter.
Looked at him and enjoyed his attractive features.
I felt like... loosing the calmness of my empty heart.
Empty heart partially filled with happiness.
Agitated the partially filled heart...

Woke up, started the day.
Went back to the dream...
Went back to impressive history.Suddenly remembered...
Today's the b day!!!
Made a wish
Spent the day with thinking of sweet memories.
Still heart is agitated...
Felt the emptiness!!!
Experienced the pain of broken Love after long time!!!!!!!!

2013/07/09
~conscience~

Can they make me a dupe?

Stranger's always belying.
NOB is still yarning.
Both of them are satisfying
by having my loving and caring.

No matter what they do
I know what I should do.
None can make me dupe
while I keep my mute.

No matter what they say.
Keeping in track on my way.
The thing that I always pray
is may their traits put away

May the triple gems blessed!
Let me know demerits I did!
Let me show how to be with them
or way to get rid of them.

2009/04/05
~conscience~

It’s not for me !

I was in the nest and waiting for a grub.
A stranger has come to me.
But there wasn't a grub with him.
Conversed and flied away.

I never expected him again.
But it's astonishing!
He came another day
Conversed and flied away.

Still I was waiting for a grub.
But never expected from him
But it's astonishing!
Stranger has come with a grub.

Is it for me? I couldn't believe.
But it's astonishing!
He's about to give it to me.
Is it a dream? Should I take it?

Obviously he was a stranger then.
But now he's no longer stranger
He always came to me.
Said "the grub is just for you!"

Why god it's happening always?
Is he kidding? Or trying to bite me?
However, finally I realized
His grub is never belongs to me!

2009-03-10

~ conscience~

Feeling Of Love

Haughtiness of love is feeling when seperated from beloved
The tears will see the jape of mirth when we cried
River is beautifull when we looked at from the river bank
But the same river will be dangerouse when jumped into it
Star will keep the happiness of the sky when the moon is not there
But, the same star is having insults when the moon is there

2009-03-15
~Conscience~

Non-owning beau for ever..



You made me crazy
You had swayed me
I've no dream without you
Suffering because of you
Crying because of you
Waiting for whereabouts
Looking at your stupid work
But, no chance to put right
No chance to chat
No chance to here the voice
No chance to show my love
Because,
You are my non-owning beau
God will never give an afflatus
Even he will never forgive me
But there's a big space
in my heart for you for ever dear..

2009-03-17
~Conscience~